Life comes a full circle

Well there is something which brings me back today to blog, its that something deep inside which wants to express out and open doors to one's thoughts.

Ill be moving to a new domain for my professional blogging which i pledge to take seriously from hereon, and plan to continue blogging here to let out my personal emotions and thoughts.

I know im posting after a long time, and life has come a full circle ! Last few months have been life changing for me personally.

As one grows up one picks up learnings from parents, friends and the overall environment and society. Learnings like what is life, what is wrong and what is right. One feels he/she has figured out life, and destiny is something one can leave for the weak hearted!

But then it comes back, it hits you hard when you realise that all your learnings and understanding were just so novice. Life is an ever evolving complex set of variables and the moment you think you have grasped it, you loose everything and back to square one.

Those who know me would know the reasons behind my sudden deep philosophical bent of mind, and truly i love them for being with me and holding me together. I regret i took life so casually, over confident and looked down upon those who had a weaker approach to life - for example i never believed in God, i always thought im above all that and can dictate my own destiny.

So here i am, stranded without the confidence, and without the support system that was behind that confidence. Now i am like evry1 else - weak, external locus of controll, submitting myself to destiny and hanging on to life.

Truth as they say is stranger than fiction, and in this moment of truth i feel lost coz what it thought was the real truth is worse than the best lies !